The Chronicles of a Breastfeeding Mother

  So,  I am not going to be writing everything that happened to me in order and that’s okay. 2020 was a miserable year and the only joy that came out of it was my precious daughter. On October 25, 2020 I had an extremely vivid and terrible dream. I was 34 weeks pregnant. In my dream, my husband took my hand and gave me devastating news in our kitchen. At the time, a lady bug landed on his arm and he put it on my arm. I don’t remember what the news was, but I woke up and told him right away. It was October 26, 2020. My day had a normal routine, I took care of the kids, we homeschooled a bit. I made them lunch and it was quickly time to make dinner. I prepared my chicken with onions, olive oil, garlic, and a variety of other seasonings. My oven was preheated and I put the chicken in for 25 minutes to cook. After 25 minutes, I opened the oven and instead of pulling it out, I got tongs and thought it was a bright idea to flip the chicken while in the oven. A little bit of oil spilt on the

 So, my whole world as I mentioned was in shambles. I was adapting to a new way of life. Originally, the world was supposed to be closed for 2 weeks, but it was way longer than that. If you never had the pleasure of dealing with anxiety/panic attacks, I salute you. They’re the worst things that I have ever encountered in my life. Someone takes your breath away and you can feel yourself genuinely losing the ability to breathe and control. Your body slowly becomes a jello and you’re paralyzed unable to lift any pieces off the ground. The only control that you have are your tears and that is when I know that the attack is slowly coming to an end. When I feel my body have a reaction to the paralyzation, I know that the attacks are ending. I wouldn’t wish them on my worst enemy. Throughout this time that I was on “vacation” I noticed that my body was changing. A week into the misery, I noticed that my period was a week late. I was getting physically ill every day. I knew that something was

 Hello my fellow readers! A lot has happened since we last followed up. I am a mother of 3! I have 2 beautiful girls and a little boy. My oldest just finished kindergarten and is going into first grade. I have gone through so many changes in the past year. I no longer am a cocktail waitress and am a stay at home mom. To be honest the transition was far from easy. All of this happened when COVID struck. At the strike of the virus, the United States went into shutdown mode. My world as I knew it changed forever. On March 18th, 2020, I took a shower like I normally did and started to get ready for work. I was scheduled to go in from 6pm until 1am. My friends kept calling me to tell me that they got sent home and I ignored them. I worked at the casino for 9 years and AMERICA NEVER SHUT DOWN. I was in complete denial. My eyebrows were done and I was all dressed and ready to go. My phone rang at around 5:30 p.m. The voice on the other line said that the casino was closed indefinitely. I coul