The Chronicles of a Breastfeeding Mother

So, we’re up  at 6 a.m.  again. I am feeling a bit sad that I have to return to work tomorrow. My husband said that it was more like a “tease.” I work tomorrow and then have the weekend off. My days are super busy with 2 kids. I know I have to work Thanksgiving, but it’s one of my favorite holidays. I thoroughly enjoy all of the food. Usually, if I am working the poker floor, I get to go home early. If I did my calculations right, I will be upstairs in poker. Does anyone have any suggestions for me? I am falling apart about going back to work. I did it with Giulietta, but this time, I did not miss my job at all. It was definitely great to be with my children. I soaked up every single moment.  At 9:20 a.m. Giovanni and I headed to a La Leche League meeting. It’s wonderful to meet other breastfeeding mothers and listen to their stories. One woman had a 7 month old and experienced many of the same struggles I did with Giulietta. I had bleeding and cracked nipples, sore...

So, Giulietta seems to think that her new wardrobe is dress up clothes. I am going to have to sneak them out of the way and wash them. Maybe when she falls asleep. If that ever happens (Fingers Crossed). Giovanni woke up smiling and cooing today. I guess the tantrum was short lived. I dislike having Giulietta watch t.v. all day. I guess I am a bad example because there are days I binge watch episodes of my favorite shows. Some of my favorite are JANE THE VIRGIN, EAST LOS HIGH, DEVIOUS MAIDS, FINDING CARTER, THE VAMPIRE DIARIES, etc. Giulietta is super cranky today. She has already thrown things at me, woken up her brother from his nap, and screamed at the top of her lungs. These are all attention getting mechanisms. I try very hard to give equal attention to both of my children. When Giovanni is resting, I give all of my attention to Giulietta. My goal is that she uses her creativity wisely. I love watching her mind work. Today she lined up all of her barbies and baby dolls. She covere...

If you have ever fed a baby breast milk, then you know about the poop explosions. Giovanni has been backed up since he got his 2 month shots Monday. He had the first dose of the oral rotavirus and the DTAP. I am super pro shots, but I prefer to do one shot at a time. The nurses look at me and think I’m a bitch mom for doing it that way, but it’s my child and my decision. Giulietta received a vaccine every two weeks and NEVER had an adverse reaction or a fever. One reason is because I am a working mom. I cannot afford to stay home from work if my child has a fever. Another reason is because I have had one friend who’s son had an adverse reaction to a vaccine and developed permanent brain damage. He also gets seizures every so often. It’s the most horrendous thing to watch. Another acquaintance had a child who developed an adverse reaction to the combination of 4 month shots. That child became extremely ill and suffered various seizures. Eventually, that child was placed on a feeding tub...

So, I guess you can say that I have become that "mother." The one who writes and shares experiences about her children. Honestly, I don't care what others think. These babies have become my life. I no longer wake up and care about what I look like in the morning. My main priorities revolve around their lives. These little creatures have taken up my whole being. When I first became a mother, I had no idea what I was getting involved in. I never researched breastfeeding or any of the pros and cons. I never asked questions about childbirth or the process or took any classes. I let my maternal instincts take over and allowed my body to lead my choices. Three months before my daughter, Giulietta was born, I watched my little sister breastfeed her first baby. She told me that I should do it as well; for at least the first three months of my daughters life. I was like, "Okay, I will do it." When my daughter was born, she came out and looked at me with one eye open. It ...