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2020/ Part 3 HER

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  So,  I am not going to be writing everything that happened to me in order and that’s okay. 2020 was a miserable year and the only joy that came out of it was my precious daughter. On October 25, 2020 I had an extremely vivid and terrible dream. I was 34 weeks pregnant. In my dream, my husband took my hand and gave me devastating news in our kitchen. At the time, a lady bug landed on his arm and he put it on my arm. I don’t remember what the news was, but I woke up and told him right away. It was October 26, 2020. My day had a normal routine, I took care of the kids, we homeschooled a bit. I made them lunch and it was quickly time to make dinner. I prepared my chicken with onions, olive oil, garlic, and a variety of other seasonings. My oven was preheated and I put the chicken in for 25 minutes to cook. After 25 minutes, I opened the oven and instead of pulling it out, I got tongs and thought it was a bright idea to flip the chicken while in the oven. A little bit of oil spilt on the
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2020/ Part 2

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 So, my whole world as I mentioned was in shambles. I was adapting to a new way of life. Originally, the world was supposed to be closed for 2 weeks, but it was way longer than that. If you never had the pleasure of dealing with anxiety/panic attacks, I salute you. They’re the worst things that I have ever encountered in my life. Someone takes your breath away and you can feel yourself genuinely losing the ability to breathe and control. Your body slowly becomes a jello and you’re paralyzed unable to lift any pieces off the ground. The only control that you have are your tears and that is when I know that the attack is slowly coming to an end. When I feel my body have a reaction to the paralyzation, I know that the attacks are ending. I wouldn’t wish them on my worst enemy. Throughout this time that I was on “vacation” I noticed that my body was changing. A week into the misery, I noticed that my period was a week late. I was getting physically ill every day. I knew that something was
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2020/ Part One

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 Hello my fellow readers! A lot has happened since we last followed up. I am a mother of 3! I have 2 beautiful girls and a little boy. My oldest just finished kindergarten and is going into first grade. I have gone through so many changes in the past year. I no longer am a cocktail waitress and am a stay at home mom. To be honest the transition was far from easy. All of this happened when COVID struck. At the strike of the virus, the United States went into shutdown mode. My world as I knew it changed forever. On March 18th, 2020, I took a shower like I normally did and started to get ready for work. I was scheduled to go in from 6pm until 1am. My friends kept calling me to tell me that they got sent home and I ignored them. I worked at the casino for 9 years and AMERICA NEVER SHUT DOWN. I was in complete denial. My eyebrows were done and I was all dressed and ready to go. My phone rang at around 5:30 p.m. The voice on the other line said that the casino was closed indefinitely. I coul
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**For the Love of An Italian Gypsy**

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*** Many of you never knew I was in the process of writing my own book. It wasn’t writer’s block that would get to me. It was reliving the painful memories of the experience. My life is very different now. It’s normal and extremely happy. When I was a young girl, I met many individuals in Italy that changed my views on the world. Every now and again, those feelings reappear and I remember the rush and adventures that we would embark on together. You never know where life will lead you! Cherish each and every moment. Remember to love and live to the fullest. I hope this book and my continuous entries spark an interest and awakens your souls. I dedicate this unfinished novel to my childhood and my teenage summers abroad. This is love!** For my family and friends all over the world. "La Mia Anima, Le Mie Parole (My Soul, My Words)" I have had many struggles writing this book. I pick up the pen and freeze, chills take over my body. I break out in cold sweats. Sometimes, it is f
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** Resuming the Writing **

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So, I know I haven’t posted for a while. I know my posts were something to look forward to. My Nonna came to town and the holidays were pretty insane. So many things have evolved since the last time I wrote. Work has been steady. I truly love the team that I work with. They are a bunch of well rounded individuals with diverse passions and integrities. My main drive has always led to writing. A simple pencil and paper have always allowed me to express things I have never been able to word. I have always won people over with my words. I have made them cry, laugh, and feel. That is what dreams are made of. If something brings a smile to your innermost being, don’t ever give up on it. Life is full of wasted opportunities. I know I should have quoted the previous sentence. I do not want to become someone that decided to lose a dream. I want to strive for  the purpose of it all. I want to create a legacy to follow. I can write about this each and every day. I absolutely love writing! With
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*Cleaning, Food, Sprinkle, the Elf, Santa, Christmas Trees, Work, Toddler School, Pace Feeding*

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Let’s chat about my life! What a productive life I have. I am either chasing my toddler or my baby. There’s always something going on. My life is never boring with two kids! Since my days off are Saturday and Sunday, I always have as many things planned as possible. Saturday, I decided to spend some time deep cleaning my house. It really needed to be done. I am slowly trying to transition Giulietta into her own room, so bath time is no longer in my room. It’s a work in progress. Honestly, I don’t mind if my kids sleep with me forever. I want her to enjoy having her own “cave” as well. So, I’m trying to make it as “three-year-old” as possible. Santa is going to bring her new princess bedding! She is so excited for that. Depending how good she is, he may even bring her her own swing set and playhouse for the backyard that she’s been begging for. At 3 years old, she’s made me a list! I told her we are going to write a letter to the elf, so he can relay the message to Santa. After we were
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